Monday, November 19, 2012

Growing Pains


He is only 2, but he is almost grown.

I know this because of all the older mothers who tell me it's so. But I know it, too, because I can sense it happening.

In his chubby hands that grow larger each day, edged with peanut butter and bread crumbs. In his shrinking sleeves that bear the smudges of his colors and "marks", as he calls them.


Here in the middle of our day, right in the middle of him playing with his trucks and police cars and Legos, sometimes right in the middle of lunch, or breakfast, or story time, I tell him:

William, I need...

And before I can finish he looks up and puts his arms around my neck. "A biiiiiiig hug," he says, the words coming out in his clear and ringing voice. He has a slight southern drawl that still catches me by surprise.

When he hugs me, I close my eyes. I wrap him up as close as can be and I breathe in deep his toddler graces, his baby shampoo and windblown curls and strawberry breath. He is always lugging a toy, a book, a tractor, a balloon. He is never empty handed.


And then he is off.

He is so fleeting, and I can't get him to stay still. Or to stop growing. He keeps on getting bigger and taller and smarter and funnier and leaner and, even though he is only 2, he is practically 17.

He is racing me. This is why I pour into him. Because he is growing and needs filling and teaching and I am the one charged with this task. I am the one who teaches him daily, who shows him and models for him about demonstrating love to others, who teaches about beauty, and grace, and how we turn to God in all times and all things, from the way we greet our grandparents at the door to the way we speak to strangers. And it is hard work that I do for him, but I do it because I love him and I love Him and even though I know I fail daily, I am sticking with it.

It is no small thing, this raising up of a child. Especially the part about "in the ways that he should go." But I am doing it, and already I see in him a light that is growing.

My sweet bundle of energy and happy laughter, I am doing my best for you. Even when it's hard, especially when it's mundane. I am doing this for you.



4 comments:

  1. I am going to be a total cliche right now. I hope you kiss that sweet face over and over and over again. Because it's true. Before you know it he'll be ten and gangly and he'll smell like a boy. It will be good. He'll be smart and funny and you'll totally be that mom who yells too loud at the baseball game. But the lines will be fuzzy around his two year old self and you'll want to have the memory of that sweet faced stored up real good.

    love this post, sweet friend. you are fighting the good fight.

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    1. Thank you, friend. I always take your words to heart!

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  2. I found your blog through Edie and man...what a sweet mama you are. I am raising a 5 year old girl and 18 month old boy and have so many of those same feelings. These children are fleeting, thank you for reminding me to pour more of me into them. Have a wonderful day!

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    1. Thank you, Anna! It's a big job to raise little ones and we are so blessed to do it, aren't we? :)

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